In a full page expertly designed and structured by the creative team, we see the cycle of thoughts in Jessica’s head. While these are helpful in the moment, we still see what happens at the center of the spiral of recurrent anxiety. She does all the ‘right’ stuff to help herself. She washes dishes with her sister, she trains, she breathes. In this process, Simon does not help by judging her on her experience with her anxiety, and the conversation goes as many do when someone is having difficulty managing anxiety in the moment: frustrated with her feelings and the resultant distress, frustrated with Simon for losing patience with her, Jessica becomes justifiably angry.ĭoing her best to get by, knowing that the green ring on her finger could call her to duty at any moment, Jessica tries. As a result, Jessica also faces the challenge of distinguishing herself and what is happening around her from the turmoil that is arising from her internal world. Humphries hits on the hallmarks of anxiety symptoms, which span multiple disorders, in a manner which feels all too real. This simple statement also told me exactly where things were going to go in the issue.įrom getting up, to pancakes, to fighting giant golden monsters, Jessica faces symptoms of anxiety many of us are familiar with: cognitive symptoms like racing thoughts, persistent worry, and issues with concentration (often due to having to spend time and energy focusing on experiencing symptoms) physiological symptoms like hyperventilating and tingling limbs or extremities. Jessica’s first thought is ‘It’s not every morning,’ something I felt poignantly. As Ben pointed out on Twitter, this issue dives into Jessica’s experience with anxiety, and the opening panels sure enough are true to form. In 2017’s Green Lanterns #15, created by Sam Humphries, Tom Derenick, Miguel Mendonca, Scott Hanna, Blond, and Dave Sharpe, we get to see ‘A Day in the Life’ for Lantern Jessica Cruz. So, for this installment of Health and Inclusivity, I want to discuss a Very Special Issue of Green Lanterns. That’s why, when I saw Ben Morse discuss a rather pertinent issue of Green Lantern on Twitter, I decided to craft something, knowing that the spark was going to lead me somewhere. Sometimes, writing one thing leads to me writing many. So, I often take inspiration where I can get it. Anxiety for me quickly becomes an irritating spector, an uncomfortable embrace composed of my fears and what I’ve been calling ‘invisible conversations.’ Writing seems to be hit the hardest, something that is painful to realize and say. As a result of the *too much*, my mind easily goes to places that are great for survival and making sure I still have an income, but at the cost of my own mental health, and, unfortunately, my creativity. Writing does not come as easily lately, in large part because *too much* is going on.
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